So, again, I don't want sex with anyone, except Eason. And even him, I don't care if I don't have sex but just spend time with him. Anyway, I don't want to talk about Eason, but Khanh.
Today he tried to have sex with me. He was kissing me, and I was just like "no, get the hell out of here". But you know, this isn't my place. It's his place. And I knew I could get kicked off at any time. Well, Khanh wants sex with me. I don't want sex with anyone. And I don't really like sex with Khanh. So I'm kinda forced to have sex.
I did have sex in the afternoon with him. By pity or something I guess. I didn't want to. I didn't like it.
I just want to find a place of my own and live alone. No problem with anyone else. Just living alone. I can't seem to be able to live with other people anyway. But seems like I've always had someone else living with me, from when I was born up to now. So maybe that is why I feel so insecure sleeping or living alone. Because I've never tried it. And I probably wouldn't like it and go crazy. But anyway.
Living with Khanh is great. It would be much better though if we had two different bedrooms, so that we can have our private lives. And don't need to please each other or have sex when we don't want to.
Anyway, I'm just fucked up and I knew already I was, but I guess I needed to confirm it.
I guess the only person I can live with is myself.
Yup.
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