Dang! I'm still thinking about him. I mean all the time. I'm like trying to find the best way to try again with him. Well I talked to him on facebook last week, so it's been a week since we talked, and I was planning on waiting a little bit longer to make him miss me, then probably call him and ask him if he wanted to meet somewhere, like for coffee or a restaurant, just to talk about what's been happening in our lives, and at the same time trick him into remembering how much he missed me, how great I am, etc. etc. And if he refuses to meet, well at least on the phone I'll have him say that it's over, even if he's a coward and doesn't want to say it... So maybe that will help me understand it really is over.
I know comparing two people isn't considered to be the best solution when in love, and the last time I did that was over Daishi and Kenny, I liked Kenny more but he didn't like me so I ended up with Daishi... Anyway, that's kind of what I'm doing right now. I'm comparing Rodrigo to Ricardo. Well, both have a lot of similarities, they are latino, older than me, have larger bodies than me, are nice and blablabla. And even if I doubt there is any chance with Rodrigo, and a lot with Ricardo, I still prefer Rodrigo. If I could choose between the two, I'd go for Rodrigo for sure. But I can't choose. I'm stuck with the second option. How awesome is that...
I'm not trying to say Ricardo is a bad person, honestly I don't know him that well yet, but he seems like a fantastic guy. It's just that I'm not over Rodrigo yet, so he keeps popping in my head all the time. And yes, it's as if I wanted my next boyfriend to be exactly like Rodrigo, hence why both are so much similar (that's because that's what I was looking for).
Well, what should I do? I should probably get a straight answer from Rodrigo. Or wait a little bit more to see how things go.
lol I just went to look at his profile... it seems like last time he logged in was yesterday. So he's probably looking for a guy on the website... someone to replace me I suppose. Well, maybe he did sleep with some other guy, so maybe I should stop worrying and leave him alone.
But it's just so hard after all he did to me, all I'm sure was honest. It's really shitty to be rejected from someone you love. Dang.
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