So there has been relatively enough noise after my facebook message that I've got really pissed off. I wrote it down so that people would try to understand me. No. They decided I was wrong and was having a problem. But anyway, I'll just let them for a while, and stop going to facebook or writing there. I mean, these "friends" are just a bunch of tiredness. And no, I'm not depressed or anything, I'm fully sober and believe what I'm saying. I've never met someone who tried to understand me, and the closer someone got was someone who would not tell me what is good and what is wrong. But these people end up finding something they can't accept about me (like Daishi for example) so I'm stuck with not much in the end. Anyway, it doesn't matter.
Talking about Daishi, I wanted to skype with him last night, and that's what we did. I wanted to talk about random stuff, and not about my friends' thingie. Everything went well until he started talking about it. Then I told him I didn't want to, I didn't want him to tell me I had a problem and should work on it, but he did, so I just gave up and went to bed. I then apologized in a text message, but what was I supposed to do? I'm fucking tired of people telling me what I should do, I want them to understand or listen to me, not go against me. I need support, not life morals.
I was thinking about going to Japan this summer and teach there or something. I have to apply (mostly write a short essay about why I want to work in Japan). It sounds much more fun than studying for my graduate diploma, and it would make a pause in my life, which I probably need. And I've been waiting to go to Japan for 6 years now, so it'd be awesome!!!! :D
Anyway, I'm moving for real tomorrow, I got my camcorder, so I'll get to play with it starting from tomorrow! :D And I have a lot of stuff to do for my classes, readings, translations, I even have a quiz on Chinese history... @_@ urgh, some shit... anyway, my other classes are fun, so it's fine! :) And Fan will come to my place tonight and we should go out (Unity again I guess) and this night he will be able to sleep over! :D Yay!
Ok, need to get to work! :P
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