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So two days ago (Thursday night) I went to that guy's place. I thought he would be jock and everything, but no, he was fat... >_< so many fat guys out there. But anyway, I gave it a try, and he was so rude... like he would hurt me all the time, especially my nipples (I don't get it, some guys really like to bite hard the nipples... fucking annoying...)

Anyway, then we went to bed, and he started snoring... omg, not only was he snoring, but he was so egocentric... argh, so I just thought about coming back home. It was 1am. And I only slept 3 hours the night before... So I was completely dead when I came back, and decided to keep on sleeping and not going to school. Then I was starting to be really depressed and everything, so I decided to call sick for the job. And then I realized something. I'm overworking.

I have school, work, and I am applying for grad school (which means I need to do a game portfolio and everything). This is sucking all the energy out of me, and I don't think I was able to stand it anymore yesterday. The problem is, I don't think I'll be able to this week either...

So I'm doing video games for my portfolio. And I realized how much I missed doing it (it's the same thing that happens every time). For example the one I'm doing right now is, imo, awesome, and with more work on it it could look just like a professional game (or at least better than half the games on the iStore). But anyway, just saying that instead of studying East Asian Studies or whatever, I'd prefer much more just doing video games everyday...

So yesterday Fan came to my place. He came drunk, and so all he was thinking of was to have sex. x_x Urgh, I mean, fuck you, all I wanted was him to come as a boyfriend, not as a sexual object... I tried not to have sex, but he was too drunk and needed it, so I just let him do whatever he wanted. I was tired, depressed, but he didn't seem to care much. Anyway.

We did some webcaming on menchats.com, it was fun. Now he's gone, I can breathe a little bit. I have tons of things to do but I'm thinking about either continuing like this and have no time for me and be desperate all the time, or stop my job. I was told before doing it that 22 hours a week is way too much for a full-time student, and now I see they were fucking right...