So I want a relationship. I've got all sad because Nok didn't answer me yet. Nothing. Anyway, tomorrow I might be sleeping with that old guy Lucca. I'm probably gonna be a regular, since I lowered the price to 80... I guess I kind of like to know that someone likes me back. Even if it's just my body. Having an old ugly guy liking myself is great I think. I'm glad I can make him happy. And it makes me some money that I can use to save and help me out. It's cool to see in front of you someone you make happy, when not so many would be able to do so.
Then, on Friday, my roommate is gonna have a party at our place. On Saturday I'm going to La Ronde with friends. And on Sunday I'm moving. So if Nok wants to sleep with me before I move, it has to be either tomorrow (and I say no to Lucca) or Saturday.
I've written some stuff on facebook lately, I'll put them here since it's worth it I guess.
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Why Are Kids Smarter Than Us?
I've heard it a lot: "Kids are so smart!" And from the view of a middle-aged woman who's given her life to the capitalist society, yes, it is true. And this sentence already explained everything.
When adults hear or see something that kids do and that they find amazingly smart, it is not necessarily because it is a "smart" thing, but mostly because it is something they wouldn't be able to do or think. They are impressed by the kids' "power" of going beyond the socially accepted. Yet all the kids do is using their freedom to express ideas that hopefully don't mean anything to them. They just say or do anything without thinking, without fearing any consequence. And that is why adults, who don't have this freedom anymore, are impressed by kids. They haven't been determined to follow the rules of society yet.
In the process of becoming an adult, one has to fit in society. It involves socializing with other people, creating and maintaining an image of yourself, and finding ways to have money. On the other hand, most of kids don't have to do any of these. Kids are free. They can do and say whatever is on their minds. Parents, and society in general, will force them to fit in society, by forcing the kids to have friends, to look good in front of others, to have a good education for a good job, etc. And in fact, by doing so adults take away all freedom of thought and action from the children. They make their children dumb. Kids need to be adults, it's better for them than being smart.
Kids aren't really smarter than adults. They just have more freedom. Adults don't even take the time to think about this. They don't have time, and they don't really think they could be smart anyway. They just want to believe that these smart kids will think for them, so that they can enjoy their weekend from a laborious week of work. Sadly, by that attitude they are just showing their kids that being smart isn't necessary in this world.
Notes: Obviously I am using generalities, as not every kid is the same, nor every adult, but I am doing so since my claims are based on a general idea that kids are smart.
I am not trying to imply that being smart is better than fitting in society, nor the opposite. In fact, I do not think one is better than the other, I am just answering to a question that is obvious with some thinking.
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God Doesn’t Exist
I find this fact one of the most trivial (I probably realized its authenticity when I was around 8 or 9), yet I observe it is a pain in the ass to talk about it to people who haven’t figured it out yet.
So, what is God? God is a creation of human society in order to explain what these people do not have the knowledge of. It is, therefore, a way for people to get rid of their rationality, by having the possibility to get answers without thinking. Science, by bringing answers to numerous questions human beings had, made it apparent that religion was wrong. In fact, it proved the non-existence of God.
Even if this is understood by many people already, some human beings still don’t have this chance. In order to fit into society, or to get quick answers to some questions, one might have to believe in a religion. But why would there be a problem if someone wants to believe in something? Shouldn’t we all accept we have different beliefs?
Well, everything is in that word: “belief”. A belief is something that is considered to be true by someone. But it is NOT true (it is neither true nor false). The belief that men are worth more than women is simply a belief, it is not a reality. Science has proven the fact that men and women are equal beings, and so it is a reality. The belief that blue is a better looking color than red is not a reality. If we start to let people believe that one color is better than the other, then we let them having beliefs that are socially considered good, just like we give them choice of religion.
We can choose to live in a lie. We can choose to let ourselves be brainwashed by others. We can choose to believe. But we can also choose to be rational. We can choose to know, to understand, the truth. Even if we are stuck in a group of believers, we can think and find the real answers by ourselves (but it is much faster with the help of other rational people). There is no need for beliefs anymore in our world, we have gotten enough answers to have a pretty good idea of how things work. And if we keep thinking rationally, why can’t we find all the true answers?
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What would you say if you knew...
What would you say if you knew that you know nothing at all about me?
What would you say if you knew that Johann isn't my real name?
What would you say if you knew that I am an alcoholic and drug addict?
What would you say if you knew I don't think anything is good or bad?
What would you say if you knew that I hate everyone?
What would you say if you knew that I am a prostitute?
What would you say if you knew that I consider myself much superior than everyone else?
What would you say if you knew that I am a serial killer?
What would you say if you knew I am oppressed by our society?
What would you say if you knew that there are naked pictures and videos of me all over the Internet?
What would you say if you knew I like piss and shit play?
What would you say if you knew that I am a pedophile?
If you knew all of this, you would, I suppose, think I have a problem.
But where is the real problem?
What makes you better than me?
What gives you the right to think I have a problem?
Everyone is different.
There is nothing good or bad about it.
So why do you still want to believe some things are wrong?
Why can't you just let people do whatever they want? If they don't physically hurt anyone.
Because yes, it is true that nobody here knows much about me. Some know bits, some don't know anything. There are things I have to hide. I have to hide myself from others. I don't want people to say negative things about me. I don't want people to be scared of me, despise me, hate me, etc. I just want people to be able to accept me even if I am different.
I want this to happen:
Me: "You know, I'm pedophile."
You: "Oh, really? That's so cool! What kind of stuff you do exactly?"
Me: "I take pictures of the neighbors' kids."
You: "Oh! Yeah, they're so cute!!"
But no, that will not happen soon. So I would have to hide that I am a pedophile, and maybe even hide it to myself, simply because it is considered a "problem" in our society. But seriously, what is wrong in watching naked children? It is to protect them? But how do you protect the pedophile who can't even do what he likes to do? He is passionate about it and yet you want to take away his fun because many people once came to the conclusion that being pedophile was morally incorrect?
Where is the harm? Who is hurt? No, the little girl is completely happy. The pedophile is not. He is hurt by society's morality.
You don't know anything about me, but I am hurt all the time by the stupid morality of our society.
But you don't care, because you think I am the evil.
What would you say if you knew I am hurt more by you than I hurt others by being crazy?
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I guess I wrote these because I wanted to be honest and write about truths, that people still don't understand. I also blocked everything on my facebook, so even my friends can't see much, only my pictures and my wall posts... I guess it's part of my hiding from society.
Ok, that's all for today, should go to sleep now! :)
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