Ok, this doesn't happen to me normally, I'm a calm and rational person, but... this was too much...
So today I decided it was time to change my profile picture on facebook. Instead of a stupid picture of me, I wanted to be original, but couldn't find anything good. Anyway, later on I was looking at Daishi's blog and I really like a picture he took of a bridge in NYC. So I guess you see where I'm going with this. I decided it would be cool to use this picture for my profile, and so I did. I wrote down "Picture stolen from my boo! :)" because I consider Daishi as my really good friend (we used to say "boo" at that time, or at least kind of). Anyway, this was some kind of honor to him, since I really like him and thought it was nice. I didn't say who it was from or anything at all, but just knowing that other people would see it would make me happy, even if they wouldn't understand at all.
But guess what? Yeah, I got a text at 1am from Daishi. "Can you NOT steal my picture from my blog?"
Wow. Great. Awesome. Fabulous. Amazing.
No, seriously, wtf is wrong? First, I get to know that he's stalking on my profile even if he removed me and blocked me from seeing his profile. Anyway, I guess I don't mind that much about that (I mean, I'd like to see how he's doing, but I guess he doesn't want me to...) But then, he uses that to tell me what to change on my profile, as if "all of what I do is wrong"... no, seriously, how stupid can that be? I know Daishi, I devastated your life, I made it all a mess and it's all my fault, but seriously, WAKE UP!!!! Fuck, are you gonna stay like this all your life? Depressed and hating me? You think it's gonna help you? I'm not trying to make you happy or anything, I want to do it because that's the way I act towards people. I know you feel lonely and you want help, you want someone to take care of you, to be there for you. But if you say no to that person "because that person is wrong", then obviously you're not gonna get anything. You can't get what you want by being pessimistic. Try to get positive and look into what life gives you, instead of crying about what life has taken away from you...
I'm not asking for you to try to understand me. No one does, it would be way too complex for anyone. But just think twice before saying something that hurt me. And you've said a lot of shit to me in the past months. What about me? I haven't done anything bad to you except 1) trying to make feel happier, 2) trying to make you realize that I'm not a bad person and 3) hanging off a conversation we had on Skype in January when I was really pissed off and couldn't keep it anymore. And all the times you've been throwing shit at me and which I was keeping cool and trying to make you understand you were acting harshly, you still continue doing that? You still haven't learned that throwing shit at someone is not gonna make people happy?
Urgh... I changed my profile picture to a song in Japanese and English about world peace and how slow people were at making it happen. Yes, it's about you not being able to see what is good and that you make everyone else behind because of your egocentrism. Anyway, you probably don't care...
Ok, I think I need to write him an email. Cuz he's coming here in two days and I don't feel like this is gonna fun at all...
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