Guillaume, my best friend and roommate, told me about something interesting. He made a comparison with a song. Why do I keep listening to a same song when I already know it? Well, because I like it I guess. Well, why do I like that song? Because I have an interest for it.
But I do not want to listen to the same song over and over again anymore. For example, even if I did like some pop songs, I don't listen to them anymore cuz I don't want to listen to the same thing over and over again. I want to hear new sounds, new voices, etc. The world is immense and I want to have a piece of everything. I like to come back at what I don't remember just so that I refresh my memory when I don't remember it. But it is just because I want to have it clear in my head. When I fully know a song by heart, with all its details, I skip to another one. And when I listened to a same style too much, when I get to know how it's made, I skip to the next one. I might come back to it later on, but just quickly and not necessarily because I like it a lot, since I always end up not liking things in the end. For example, right now I like this tune from The Flashbulb, but I know for sure that in two months I won't anymore. It's part of life, my tastes change really quickly. I can't like the same thing for too long.
And I think that is my main problem. I think most people can like the same things over and over again, without being sick of it. Well, I can't. I need change. I always need change. I can't stand doing the same thing everyday. Every single of my days have to be different. Or else I get sick and depressed. I have to learn new things, in different ways, with different people, at different places, etc. If I can't do that, I will get depressed. And is it a bad thing? Probably not.
But it also means I can't stand living with the same person all of my life. I can't stand doing the same job all of my life. I can't stand having the same friends all of my life. It sounds probably stupid and over-reacting, but it is so true. I've tried long term relationships, and I just can't do it at all, no matter how good they are or not. But because I want to see both sides, I will go on trying to find in my life some interests that I have been keeping for some years now.
Guillaume, who I know for 6 years now I think, have been a good friend of mine since the beginning. Why? Maybe because he changes a lot too. We share a lot of things together, and even if we don't like the same things at priori, we try to get to know different things all the time. So in that way, he is similar to me, he wants to discover new things all the time, so I guess that's why I'm still interested in him being my friend.
Video games are all different, and I try to play many different styles, so I guess it doesn't really count. Films and every media is the same I guess.
Asia? Well, I don't know if I really am interested in Asia. I would like to think I am not anymore, or not as much. I guess I am just because I have a lot of knowledge on Asia because of my major, but I don't think I have such a passion for it anymore. I'd like to live there, it's true, but I think it's just because I'd like to perfect the languages I have learned for so long.
Sex. lol. But seriously, I've liked sex for a really long time, and I still do. It changed forms sometimes (from straight porn, to gay porn, to hookups) but in the end I still like watching any porn and experience sex. It sounds crazy, but it is probably my biggest passion!
I was looking on Wikipedia at mental disorders. I don't think I have any, seriously. I'm just smarter than everyone else and so that's why I'm considered crazy? lol anyway, I don't know what's my problem, I'll try to keep looking for it! I have an interest disorder! lol
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