I don't like personal blogs, they're all about stuff that no one really reads... I mean, they're boring and no one really cares, except stalkers... so hello to you, if you're stalking me, and hopefully you'll have fun!
So what happened today? well, actually it was a really long day... started great, but I guess the fatigue made it fucking bitchy... So yesterday evening I hooked up with that guy on manhunnt, and the next morning I was soooo in a good mood from it...
me: well, I was on manhunt, we talked a bit before, but yesterday I was like "what are you doing? want me to entertain you?" (sort of...) He didn't have a face pic, but I was like who cares...
Step: OOOOH! mhunt name!
me: (his name on manhunt is "odorimasu") He was indeed cute :) so after like 1 minute we went in bed, and started right away instead of the usual blabla that some like...
he is skinny, but I didn't know I liked skinny guys that much! lol soft skin and everything, his kissing was not so good but ok...
haha, I mean, he doesn't have the greatest body, but he used it well :D
so... shirts off, pants off...
he actually has an average-size penis in terms of length, and kinda small as for the circumference (? lol what's a better term for that? :P )
and I was like "oh my god, I love it!!!"
haha, I hate people with big dicks :P
so we sucked a bit, continued, blablabla... I thought he was versa but he told me he was top. So anyway, I can be bottom! lol but he didn't have condoms... so I was like "wtf another guy who's lying and wants to do it bareback..." but in fact I think he really didn't have any, so we just didn't do anything anal.
And so slapsh splash, all over him... it was kinda quick, less than 20 minutes I think :P
Step: what? no anal?
me: and so... we went cleaning... and that was gonna be it... lol we talked a bit, I found out he was a really nice guy, so it was fun :)
and bam! we started kissing again!
another no-anal thing (I didn't cum but he did, I guess it was too fast for me :P)
So he was like "well what do you want to do?"
he sort of implied before that he'd like "sleeping" with me, so I just proposed him that. And then I said "well is there a drugstore or sometU7$3that we can buy condoms?"
so we went out, bought condoms...
and obviously the first thing we did after that was sex!! lol
and anal sex!!!
and because his dick is small, it didn't hurt (it always hurts a bit, so that's why I hate bottoming...) but it felt oh so great!!! :3
he kept like this for a long time, and then bang! cummed on me, and then I came too...
what's really great is that exactly what I like to do with a guy, that's what he liked to "be done", and vice-versa. Like the way we touch, the way one does more action that the other, etc.
so we went sleeping, naked, hugging and kissing :3
when I usually sleep with another guy I always end up hugging the other guy and he doesn't touch me at all, which is boring... but as soon as I turned over and show him my back, he would instantly hug me :3 that was great!!! lol
and I could actually kiss him during his sleep, or touch his dick, etc. and he would let me instead of saying "oh, I want to sleep..." haha, he was horny and so I was :)
Step: lol 3 times in one night eh
that sounds about right
usually guys are too tired after the first, which is kinda boring
me: but in the end he was REALLY a super nice guy, I love talking to him, just doing nothing, and having sex!!! lol
Step: lol maybe you found your guy to have an open relationship with
me: yeah, usually one is the maximum :P I always try to do it twice...
haha, yeah, we talked about relationships, how boyfriends are assholes who always want attention! lol
Step: hah, depends I tend to suck the energy out of them
me: hahaha
good boy ;)
...
me: oh, we slept... we woke up, hmmm... we didd nothing because he had to go to work... and so I went back home... I think that was pretty much it :P We texted a bit at noon but now he just rejected me because he had too many things to do... REJECTED!!!! lol
me: but that's pretty much it... I kinda miss him and would like to have sex with him again NOW!!!!
I even wrote on my facebook how great it was, to which some of my friends started to think I might be hooking up or something... oh fuck you, ok? it's like my ex being such an asshole over this issue, as if it was so bad to hook up... anyway, at that same time, so this morning when I came back at like 7am, I wrote to some friends on facebook... and no reply yet... wtf, just answer me, ok? I really think I suck at making new friends, I don't know at all how to behave and I get it so messed up that they don't want to talk to me anymore... Like there's this guy who looks like a super friend, but he is oh so hard to get... I tried chatting on facebook but he doesn't really answer me today... :/ weird... am I doing too much? wtf... and he doesn't even answer to my mail... did I write something I shouldn't have? I talked about my hookup, but I don't think he would have felt offended or anything...
Anyway, there's this other super awesome friend, my idol in life... so the same morning she added me as a friend on her special facebook profile. I was like "oh yes!! I love you~~~" but she didn't answer my mail... I mean, it's fine, I don't mind, but it just sucks, especially since she's leaving soon and I wanted to get to know her better (as a friend, I'm not that bi...) datte douyatte ii ka zenzen wakannai yo... I can't find anything else to do but just wait for her or a friend of her to invite me somewhere... well, let's wait and see... :(
Then I feel like I want to have sex with anybody, just like her. I mean, just someone topping me so that I don't have to do anything but just have sex. Yeah, just having sex is for me sooo great that I don't mind not having fun at all. Most of the times I do, but it isn't what I'm looking for... I just like being with someone else, knowing other people, etc. So I guess I'm just having sex because I don't have enough friends... kinda sad... I couls spend more time with my friends, but at the same time I'm not really that sociable... I like having sex, talking dirty or lovely, and that's it. I don't want to go out with my friends, I don't like spending too much time with them, etc. And so that was the problem with my ex that he brought up on skype tonight... he wants to remain a friend that is as close as a boyfriend... but wtf, I can't do that man, I don't really spend that much time with any of my friend anyway, I'm not gonna spend two hours a day for you, sorry...
So, in priority, 1) sex, 2) friends, 3) love. And actually I'm not looking for love at all, but just as "affectionate love" I could get from hookups or friends... And today, or at least after 7am, I got no sex, didn't get replies to my friends, and well obviously only got affectionate love from my friends... Thanks Stephen! I love you!! :D
Edit (02/10/11): This priority list seems kinda odd now. I'm not sure what it would be... Maybe something like 1) find this special friend/lover, 2) get to know more people like me, 3) go out, 4) make as many people as possible happy, 5) make world peace with my ideas. I'm definitely not looking for love or sex anymore... which is kinda weird lol anyway, I should think more about my priorities! :)
So in short, my life sucks. I don't like it the way it is... so I want to hook up more, I want this awesome guy to answer me and get to know him better, and I want these new friends to fucking answer me and invite me somewhere!!!
Goodbye!
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