I don't fucking want to go back. I hate people there, I don't want to be stuck in a remote village out of nowhere, with a "family which is more important than anything else". I was thinking about going there high so that I wouldn't feel stressed out or anything, but... there're gonna judge and that's gonna be shittier...
So I have to look happy, I have to live in a lie for some days... argh, this will be fucking difficult... :/ anyway, it's too late now, let's just do it and die, let's just go kill myself right now instead of waiting and stressing about whether I'm going or not. It's not like staying here will be better anyway. No, wait, it WILL be better...
I'm just gonna text all my friends to wish them a merry christmas, that's gonna make me feel better I guess... anyway, it's gonna cost me less than if I send them in quebec city, because I'm going in the end, right? @_@
Anyway, Merry Fucking Christmas!
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