Yay! Yesterday evening I did another stupid thing! yatta! I went and asked Stephen if I could "sleep" with him, with no sex. Obviously he said no, that's not something he does with friends. Well i went on to ask him this following my thoughts of yesterday, but also because we had a discussion some days before in which he seemed to really like the idea of me being there to hug him and everything. so wtf has changed? lol anyway, I guess that's just part of it. Every time I try to get close to someone I get too close, and it doesn't work out, and so it makes shit... yeah...
But oh well, that's just it, I don't care that much I guess. I'm just pissed off of everyone else. I mean, I just want to be myself, act as I want. I know this isn't good according to everyone else's standards, but if someone was acting like this with me, I'd try to talk to that person even more, try to get to understand why that person acted in a way that I didn't like, etc. I mean, seriously that's what I do. I guess I like weird people, but don't like normal people. And I guess that's because I don't like normality. Like Wikipedia says, social norms are "the rules that a group uses for appropriate and inappropriate values, beliefs, attitudes and behaviors. These rules may be explicit or implicit. Failure to follow the rules can result in severe punishments, including exclusion from the group."
And yes, I am one of these who can't follow social norms, not at all. Even if you tell me you're gonna break up on me, and even if I love you, I'm not gonna choose to follow your norms, and you can go to hell with your stupid rules. And actually, no matter how much you will tell me that I'm wrong and you're right, I will not listen at all. gomen. But anyway, it's not like you care, you're just gonna start despising me, you're gonna get farer from me, and that's pretty much it. Good for you!
Is there anyone out there like me? Is there anyone as much fucked up as I am? Obviously no, since I am "unique" mwahahaha... But seriously it's stupid. I hate society for making rules and everything. I hate having to follow these rules. And I have no choice actually... I know most of them are "for the good of everyone", but what is good and what is not? that's pretty different from everyone. The pedophile might be much happier to rape the little girl than the girl is sad about being raped. So if it's giving more positivity than negativity, then why would we prosecute the old jiji? because we have laws and we need to respect them? lol because if we allowed him to do it then everyone would do it and then in the end it would make a lot of little girls crying? hahaha, who said it was not a good experience for a girl to be raped? well, no ones like to be raped, of course! Well, am I someone? Come and rape me, I'd LOVE it! No matter if you gave me all your STDs, I'd be soooo happy to experience a rape. Seriously. But that's not gonna happen because as soon as the raper is gonna come and want to have sex with me, I'll be "oh yeah! go for it!" and this won't be a rape since I'll consent to it... So maybe rapees are just about people who don't know anything about sex and who feel bad afterwards because it is different from what society told them. Yeah, did you get that? Have you finally started thinking a bit more than what people just throw at you?
No, of course you don't. My blog's not gonna change you because you feel like all I'm saying is bullshit. Well, at least I hope you think I'm making sense. As to believe me or not, that's not my goal, I just want to make you understand that the world isn't what everyone thinks it is. It's not because Obama says something that it is the truth. So stop trusting society, stop trusting anyone for that matter, and find the truth about things by yourself, with careful, logical and rational. Have a nice day~
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