So I went to see my family (well only my dad and siblings) and I wasn't so much sick, and since I had a pump for asthma, I got back pretty well :)
So I came back yesterday, felt really lonely for Christmas, so I decided I should hookup, ended up really far from town to a guy's place. The guy was really... well, he was "dumb", though I don;t mean it in a bad way or anything. He didn't talk much an had a poker face, but he liked a lot lol we slept together, and that's pretty much it. He made a really good peanut butter sandwich for breakfast lol He was really a cool guy, the kind of people there was in my high school classes, so it was cool. I ended up back to my place pretty tired from lack of sleep, and tried to sleep but couldn't since the neighbors had kids and were making so much noise lol
Tonight I was supposed to hookup with a black muscled guy who's a drug addict, so I thought I could try at the same time, but he didn't answer me yet, so I'm guessing I'll stay here tonight (and I'm pretty tired...)
Anyway, then I went on manhunt and guess who looked at my profile? Yeah, that fucking bastard... e hasn't answered my latest texts, he just doesn't care about me at all, but he looks at my profile. No, I don't think that's the worst part, the fact that he is online on that website means a lot... probably looking for another boy who is just gonna be a fuckfriend and won't start loving him... or maybe he will and he'll be a hypocrite like he was with me... oh shit I really hate him now... yet I'm still sad and clearly not over this.
I swore to myself I wouldn't fall in love with anyone starting from now, so at least I learned something from the bitch.
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