8/14 Memories

I was listening to this song. It reminds me of my home. And me going back trying to find myself, but not being able to. Yet I keep having all my memories about this place. But I'm different now, and the place is different too. It's sad.

It also remind me of my second home, in Coaticook/Dixville. This is where I spent my summers with my family and this another family. Quite easily the best memories of my childhood. I need to go back there one day. For the same reasons.

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Eason told me that on New Year's Eve I gave him my phone number, but I thought I gave him my email address. (I did give him my phone number first, then I gave him my email in a text! lol) So I just wanted to be sure (since I've started having a really bad memory lately... :/ I forget everything...) and so I looked for the first email he sent me on January 4th:

Hi Francis,

I’m back Toronto now. It was so nice and exciting to meet you in Montreal on the new year eve. I had the best kissing ever with you. I really want to come back again to meet you, can I? J You are such a sweet and kind guy that I have been thinking about all the time these days. I would never forget such special day from 2010 to 2011.

You are also welcome to Toronto and visit me. I wish it would be coming soon.

All the best to you and your family in 2011.

Cheers,

Eason

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Hey Eason! Nice to hear from you! :)

Yeah it'd be nice to meet again! But I don't think I'll go in Toronto (I'm still a student so I don't have that much money or time...) So if you come back in Montreal, just don't forget to tell me in advance so that I can find some time! :)

Talk to you later!

Francis

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Hey Francis,

Great to hear you back. When would you usually have more free time during your school term? I will try to come when you are not that busy (don’t want to disturb your study too much J). Are you on the Face book or MSN?

Take care,

Eason

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And we kept talking on facebook, I pretty much said stupid things while he really liked me... :/ Anyway, I was quite stupid not noticing that he liked me... That was probably because I was with Fan at that time so I wasn't really thinking about being in love with other guys... But seriously I didn't notice he was in love with me. It took me 6 whole months to realize it!!! lol

Anyway, these memories about Eason keep popping all the time. And I keep having this weird feeling of "love" or whatever it is. I love him. I really do. That's weird, because I wouldn't have really said that with another person before. Or at least I wouldn't mean it completely. But yet, I don't understand what love is. Why do I say I am in love with him if I don't want to believe in love? Is it proof that love is a true feeling?

I love you Eason :)